Nearing the midway point of my first Geekwise Academy class and I am not sure how to rate myself. I am having fun and learning new skills, gaining knowledge about how to code a website that I did not have prior to this Websites for Beginners class. I get excited about this new info during class, but outside of it, I lack focus and ambition to use these new skills or info. I am lost and no one understands that. I try to explain to those who will listen, but I can not expect miracles. I am only asking for further guidance and for someone to take the time to help me along this journey. Is that too much to ask for?
I have sought out my own family, but, as I have stated before, they refuse to help. Monetary is not true guidance or help, it is but one part of the overall puzzle. I need assistance finding those remaining pieces. The knowledge of those pieces is what I lack.
It is all I can do to maintain a sense of self in this rush-rush world that I occupy and my laughter hides my truest fears, of being alone and completely misunderstood. I am awkward and my actions are weird, but I am harmless and sensitive if given the opportunity to show it. I can be a friend, though I have trouble with friendships. My communication skills are pitiful, to be blunt and honest. I enjoy and much prefer to talk your head off in person and I apologize ahead-of-time if I am annoying to you or others. It is not my intention ever to be rude or annoying, I am just weird like that. We are all weird in some way.
So, I thank you for reading this post and wish you a pleasant day.