Nearing the midway point of my first Geekwise Academy class and I am not sure how to rate myself. I am having fun and learning new skills, gaining knowledge about how to code a website that I did not have prior to this Websites for Beginners class. I get excited about this new info during class, but outside of it, I lack focus and ambition to use these new skills or info. I am lost and no one understands that. I try to explain to those who will listen, but I can not expect miracles. I am only asking for further guidance and for someone to take the time to help me along this journey. Is that too much to ask for?
I have sought out my own family, but, as I have stated before, they refuse to help. Monetary is not true guidance or help, it is but one part of the overall puzzle. I need assistance finding those remaining pieces. The knowledge of those pieces is what I lack.
It is all I can do to maintain a sense of self in this rush-rush world that I occupy and my laughter hides my truest fears, of being alone and completely misunderstood. I am awkward and my actions are weird, but I am harmless and sensitive if given the opportunity to show it. I can be a friend, though I have trouble with friendships. My communication skills are pitiful, to be blunt and honest. I enjoy and much prefer to talk your head off in person and I apologize ahead-of-time if I am annoying to you or others. It is not my intention ever to be rude or annoying, I am just weird like that. We are all weird in some way.
So, I thank you for reading this post and wish you a pleasant day.
Who among us is willing to search for the truth? That truth of who we are, why we are here, and our overall distinctive purpose? We are human and humans have a unique interest in understanding and learning from our past. The past can, and very often does, shape our present and forms the basis for the future. To be alive is to be knowledgable, or vice versa.
I have located a petition that I encourage everyone to sign: ET Disclosure. We need to force the governments of our world to reveal all that they know regarding who and what are currently living among us. They are here, they are friendly, and we deserve the truth!
Do not hesitate. The fate of our own survival is at stake!
Yes, the title phrase has been used multiple times by a wide range of people and I use it here just to grab attention. I have more to say, will post later.
By the way, I am attempting to sell my 2006 Toyota Camry car. See my Facebook page for details.
UPDATE – June 21 – I sold my car to my brother for $1,000. I posted about it on FB.
My plan is not my own. It is a product of the universe. I can claim no personal ownership. I could say more, but then I would be giving away the store.
Okay, so I am at a crossroads in my week. I must accomplish one task to get all the other pieces to fall in place. Can I do it? Should I do it?
Heck, you’re wondering what the bleep “it” is, aren’t ya? Well, I ain’t tellin’, yet. But, just wait, I will inform ya soon enough. Jus’ be patient.
More to read and never a dull moment with me. In fact, I enjoy staying busy and active.
I must conclude now with a quote:
No act of kindness, no matter how small, is ever wasted.
I have much to say, but am unsure how to say it all. I wanted to enter the Casting Call Show podcast contest, and today is the deadline, and I have nothin’ to submit. My voice is weak and my mind is full of nonsense. I am fearful and concerned about my sanity and abilities. I am a failure and a hypocrite. If you are looking for a model citizen, look beyond me.
This is not by choice. I can not and will not take responsibility for sometbing for which I have no control over. That is not why I am here. That is not what I am accountable for. My life is not my own. I am not of my own creation. I have no equal, no parallel. If I can not succeed, than neither can you.
Please grow your wings and fly away. Get out while you can. Sadly, I am trapped. This life is terminal. The due date for it is unknown to us, but known to our universal truth. I want knowledge.
Wrap it and smash it!
I have found the solution!
What was the problem, you ask? It is a conundrum and a dilemna to speak outrageously about the present. Be quiet to hear the roar of the past as it washes over you and slides into the next dimension. The alternate is inexscapable. I could continue. I should continue. I will continue.
Solutions are found on the bottom of the pile. The pile is large and unforgiving. Give in to the pain and be well.
That is all… for now…